i'd ask how, but i know.

my degeneracy peaked these last two weeks. it's probably just as accurate saying "idk what happened" as saying "based on 3 of these foundational issues, 2 of these current situations, an already established neurotic mind..." etc etc. but the fact remains, these last two weeks were different. loneliness, ego, acknowledgement, failure, cowardice, relief, gratification, happiness...mm. i also did something i've never done, as far as exposing myself in a certain way. that may have ironically been the only point of progress, but the ramifications could be somewhat dangerous (i'm referring to psychologically, nothing to do with legality, etc....christ). well.